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Loss

I wrote this for someone who we all hold on too, for the someone we all lost, and for someone we never knew.

Don’t cry.

I’m really not that far away from you. Distance is only as far as we allow each other to drift in our heads. The absence tests us, and while I’ve never found it to make anything other than

yearning stronger, I’ve also found it to be a reminder of what I have, and you have - to what we both return each time our minds linger upon those precious thoughts.

Don’t cry.

Faith feels empty, I know, when it remains unfullfilled - when patience and hope become and remain ashy shells of their former glory. Time does that, drains away some of the good and allows cracks to open, bleeding doubt into our foundation. Don’t believe its lies.

And don’t cry.

I never left you. I remain firmly held within your thoughts, your memories. You never let me leave and I never wanted too. It’s just that plans, they don’t mean a thing except to you and me. The universe has its own needs even if we don’t understand them - even if it hurts so badly to not have our way.

Please don’t cry.

It breaks my heart. I wait to embrace you again. My patience - endless. My love, whole.

Please don’t cry. I am with you.

12 Responses to “Loss”

  1. Fex Says:

    Beautiful. Simply beautiful, and filled with deeper meaning. This brought me back to another time.

  2. Mina Says:

    So beautiful.

  3. MangledTulip Says:

    “Don’t cry.”

    How does one not?

    elise

  4. gracie Says:

    yet, i cry.

    i will have to save that one.

  5. jayne Says:

    daemon

    you express grief so well so deeply

  6. lil pig Says:

    i started reading this and first thought of my brother, who i lost suddenly 9 years ago…and then as i read on the emotions of my current loses rolled around inside.

    And i cried..even though the words said not to, i did.

    It was a good cry though, and good to be reminded that i am not always alone with it all.

    Thank you

  7. Magdelena Says:

    Sensitive and beautiful.
    Too easily loss feels like failure so I take to heart the assurance your words kindle, and remind myself that faith reconnects with loyalty on the edges of things we may never understand.

  8. shula Says:

    Thank you for your words as always.

  9. elle Says:

    beautifully written.

    elle

  10. Neeraja Says:

    Profoundly expressive.

  11. Shell Says:

    I’ve been a fan of your blog for a while now, but this is the first time I’ve felt the need to comment. Your way with words can be quite stunning, both in darkness and in light.

    In a previous post you mentioned, “Darkness, Darkness, Darkness.” He used to live in my head too, the demon. He had a nice little burrow, all tucked deep inside. He’s gone now. I killed him. It was the sweetest death you could ever imagine.

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