5/3/2005

Passive.

Filed under: — Daemon @ 10:40 pm

I close my eyes and I feel the ache that forms almost immediately behind the lids. I am tired. My fingers move restlessly to type this before I try again, stupidly, to sleep. I may as well try to Windex my eyes to turn them blue.

I am prowling, yes, but without the energy to engage in anything worthwhile. I am passive, in a daze almost-a self-induced state of uncaring. While my corrosive nature still comes through the haze quite easily, I take no real interest in the pain my words inflict. I am rather like a well-fed predator – not eager to engage, but still quite capable of doing harm.

Some of this comes from my problem, that I spoke of earlier, which I addressed and carried out rather efficiently, but the rest comes from the lack of sleep I have experienced in the last 2 weeks.

I am not drinking coffee. I miss the smell of coffee in my house.

Termination

Filed under: — Daemon @ 7:15 am

I am going to fire someone today, and while he certainly has screwed up past the point of acceptable idiocy, I acknowledge the burden this will place upon his family. He has a new baby around 6 months old, I believe. They sent me a photo when she was born - it rests in his employee file that is currently face up on my desk.

In the file? Yes, I avoid that personal connection that causes conflict with the needs of the business.

That being said, I know, without a doubt, this will disolve into….chaos? No, more likely the profanity dictionary will be pulled out to describe me in some manner. He is a passionate personality. I’ve watched him work, interact with others and I know he feels first, thinks second. It is the reason that he is going now and not later on.

I am ready.

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