Note to self: Hit me when I come to my senses for ever putting up with this shit.

The update: DA didn’t like some things I told her. She said that I had told her in so many words how I felt, but after declaring she had to have a break, came back hours later to apologize for her tantrum. DE is providing me some interesting information - I have yet to decipher her motives. VI messaged and let me know that I am the talk of the ‘town.’ I think she is trying to size me up.

Rumors circulate about me. I get to hear all of them, of course, from my spies that loom in the shadow - including a few that I find amusing. I am rumored to be DA and TA, but I can’t possibly be just myself. I have the same style as someone years past. I have gotten the question if I am from CA several times. Is this the whole syndrome of doubt that plagues the insecure women around here? I can only wait for the rumor to die and the hens to tire of their wagging tongues.

I have made my declaration previously, but have taken no action upon it. Deciding the first victim is tedious. Offers are in the air.

Of course, I could post what SL stated to me, but that would show my unending arrogance. I would much rather you discover that slowly.
On the subject of SL - there is a lot, but not for posting here. She is the reason I am here and certainly the reason you are able to read this.

I am becoming capable of controlling my demons today, but they are, by no means, gone. I just do not want to attract any more attention than I have. I am tired of the constant messaging. I think I will send a few away today. I tire of their chatter. The sadistic side of me is showing, but not so much in the physical sense, but rather in the barbed and lashing whit I have unleashed upon ‘them.’

I am all powerful. The alpha and the omega.