Would you like to be the fall back for someone in case their current relationship doesn’t work out?

Just a question that has bothered me.

Another: Would you fuck a married woman because she asked you too? Would you assume that it is okay because you, yourself are available?

And finally - Does the married woman ask you to fuck her because she knows that you will not, and then can assume that, when you reject her, it opens the door for her to say you ‘had your chance’ or ‘if you really wanted me, you would have taken my offer.’

Call me jaded, because I am. I am tired of taking scraps - bits and pieces. I say that, and yet I freely admit that I, myself, hold back much of who I am in any given relationship. It is rare to find someone that ‘gets’ a sadist - Someone that understands the need to inflict pain, to taste blood. Most of the ‘normal’ people just assume that I am a step away from psycho status.

To those I would say this: I am honest about what I am. I cause pain, emotional and physical but just as I tear down, I also build up. I believe in being direct and only choose strong people. I don’t bully, I dominate. I don’t seek the unwilling, I seek the eager. I love far more deeply than you can possibly imagine, yet at the same time, am not eager to share it. There are a select few who can say they have that kind of reach inside me and I wouldn’t change that.

I doubt those judgmental ones out there even go that far. You ‘normal’ people prefer passive aggressive attacks, subterfuge, innuendo. You prefer to take the safe route - to remain hidden under the gray cloud of doubt rather than risk anyone knowing who and what you are. You are eager to love, yet just as eager to take it away. You like a shallow and ignorant love, and run when the road proves less than smooth. You are eager to judge, because you fear being judged. Your motto - strike first, learn later.

That is all of the ramblings I have tonight.

To that certain one: It isn’t distance. I just tire of arguing. I am allowing the ripples to expand outward and eventually calm. You are always with me.